I Saw This And Thought

2020-03-26 17.12.23 randommusingmind.blogspot.com 94b08d3c70dcScrolling through my wall in FB, I saw this post from Hopeless Romantics 101’s and as I was reading it, I thought . . . . hmm, I don’t know about the conclusions made. While, yes I agree that being in love and loving are 2 different things. I believe that love doesn’t begin when being in love ends, not if it is real or true love. If it is real and true then being in love and loving join and become an incredible union in and of itself. One doesn’t stop and then the other begins, not if it is real and true.
See, I am very much in love with my man. Just the thought of him still gives me butterflies. His smile still melts me. I still think he is the best thing since sliced bread, no he is the best thing ever, even better than sliced bread. No one has ever made me feel the way he does. He can make me feel pretty and special. He lifts me up when I am down. He encourages me when I want to step outside my comfort zone. We still have long conversations, some with no pauses, some where we are so excited that we talk over each other and some with very comfortable pauses. And those hours are the best part of my day. His hugs still make everything better and his kisses sweep me off my feet.
Absolutely, yes, I still get overwhelming separation anxiety. I miss him like crazy when he is gone and hate going a day without the sound of his voice. He is the one that I always want to share my day with, the good, the bad, the ugly. He is the first one I want to ‘brag’ to. He is the first one that I want when the day beats me. He is the one who’s opinion matters most.
While I do consider us ‘perfect’, we are a real couple in a real world. We have had tears, both happy and sad ones. We have had the stress of life, moves and new jobs and new opportunities and family drama. We have had sadness, loss and misunderstandings and challenges to face and overcome. But for me, none of it was ever a chore. I never considered it to be the worst of him or me or us. And I have never wanted to be anywhere else. And I certainly have never wanted to be with someone else.
I still get giddy excited by random ‘I Love You’s. He still gives me flowers just because. I still love giving him handwritten love letters. He still calls just to hear the sound of my voice. I still get overexcited when he has extra time just for us. I am still super proud of him and all his achievements. He is still my favorite thing to brag about. Matter of fact he is my all-time favorite topic. I always feel his love and presence in everything that I do. I will always be in love with him and I will always love him and show that love in everything that I do. So no, my being in love will not end and my love already exists. Cause what we have is real and true love. It is timeless and eternal. It is both being in love and loving joined as perfectly as he and I are joined. It is that rare thing that everyone looks for and few find. It is perfect and it is ours.

I had a thought

My Dearest,

Today, it crossed my mind just how far we have come. How much we have shared and learned and discovered about each other and us. All the ups and downs have been worth it. Never before have I wanted something so much. Knowing that you are there for me and that you love me is the best feeling in the world. You are absolutely the best thing ever to happen to me and the best thing in my life. Of every little thing that you do I am forever grateful. Unconditionally you shower me with your love and support. Forever would never be enough time for me to show you all the ways you have made my life better. Out stretched hands reaching for the stars like a child free to dream is how you make me feel. Right before me you stand full of magic and wonder and giving me the encouragement I need to grow and learn to fly. Each and every day your confidence in me helps my confidence in myself. Very much so. Either by word or deed you have a way of making me feel special and important. Ready to catch me if I fall or cheer me on if I fly. You are my greatest inspiration. Letting me be me is one of your greatest gifts that you have given me. I feel so safe and protected by your love. There is nothing that I cannot do with your support. There is no place I would rather be than right here with you. Lead me around the world and back again. Every where and any where that you are, that is my favorite place to be. Thank you for loving me. Hearing me when I speak.. I love that I matter to you. Nothing in the world makes me feel the way that you do. Giving you my all is nothing less than you deserve for all that you do for me. Today is the first day for me to love you more than I loved you yesterday. Heart and soul soar to reach the stars and give them to you. All that I am is enhanced by your love. Tomorrow is the best thought in the world, next to today that is. You are my first thought and my last thought each day. Our journey has just begun and I am so excited. Ultimately, this is my greatest dream; YOU. Defining my love for you is something that is beyond my ability to fully express. Oh, but I will continue to try to find the words.

I wish for you to know all the ways that you impact my life. Like the brightest star in the sky, you shine over my whole world. One of my favorite things is just how much you know me. Viscerally you seem to flow through my veins, soaking into my every cell. Every day you give me more and more. You are more precious than any treasure in the world. Others can agree with me about your value. Understanding how many gifts you have is an overwhelming ecstasy. Each and every gift you have makes the lives of those around you enriched. Those that know you well, know just what a rare and special gift you are. Every one of us that can say we know you can say we are better for it. Really, just your presence can be enough to impact those that can feel your energy. Never before have I been so blessed. Always will I be grateful for every gift and every moment. Lifetime is such a short time, so I will ask for 1000 lifetimes to repay you. Love from you is the most special I have ever had. You are that special to me. Forever I will be yours. Our time is eternal. Real and true is my every thought and word and deed. Even in the night your light is there like the stars shining like diamonds in the night sky. All you give is without compare. Caring and sharing and giving what is needed and wanted. Heaven is not a place, it is just being with you. Ask and there is nothing that I would not give. Nothing would be too much or more than you deserve. Day and night and day and night you are the center and the goal. Each thought of you brings a smile that also brings peace and security. Voices carry over the distance to feel empty nights with promise. Each action is just one more reason to fall in love all over again. Rising to your heights just to see your sights. Yes, you are a prime destination for me. One I will always desire and pursue. Needing your presence is just something that is part of me now. Ever’more you are the center of my universe and the star of my dreams.