Tag: Loneliness

Sleeptime

I hear the silence it is so very loud,
It vibrates ’round me like a bomb.
I hear the silence it is so very quiet,
It seeps in every corner of my being.

I hear the silence yelling from within,
I hear the silence deafening all around,
I hear the silence crushing everything,
I hear the silence screaming, screaming
I hear the silence.

I see the darkness it does not end,
It goes on and on like an empty void,
I see the darkness surrounding the flicker,
It glares hungrily at the center of me.

I see the darkness the black hole growing,
I see the darkness the abyss within,
I see the darkness seeping into corners,
I see the darkness staring back at me,
I see the darkness.

 

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Adrift

Set adrift in the dark,
Alone with no light,
Clouds hide the moon,
The stars do not shine.

What do I have?
There is nothing here.
Where do I go?
There is no where,

I read your words,
Written so long ago,
The only warmth I know,
I wrap my heart in them.

They are my only hope,
I was in the abyss,
And it was loving you –
That guided me out.

When I found solid ground,
I thought I was safe again,
But now I am lost at sea,
And the darkness doesn’t leave.

You are my only dream,
I whisper your name,
Over and over again,
Until, I almost feel you.

If I am strong enough,
If I try hard enough,
If I am right enough,
Then maybe, just maybe…

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What NoOne Noticed

Millions of little shards,
Scattered among the sand,
Drifting with dirt,
Blown away on the wind,
Washed away with the tides.

All the little pieces –
That use to fit together,
All the little pieces –
No longer matching,
All the little pieces –
All that is left.

Gone is the heart,
Gone is the mind,
Gone is the soul,
Gone, gone, gone.

Pink shredded ribbons hang,
Blood rivers flowing
From the emptiness,
The gaping hole.

Paleness spreading,
Shadows forming,
Light leaving,
Night consuming.

 

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Hide it All

Put on the smile,
Hide the tears,
Show no weakness,
Show no sadness

Just a happy face,
Just a friendly word,
Just a sure, that’s fine,
Of course I understand.

Help out everyone,
Give your all to them,
Do it over and over,
Give your all again.

Hide the scars,
Hide the bruises,
Deny the pain,
Deny the hurt.

Take it all,
Hide it away,
Don’t wish or dream
Don’t hope or pray.

No, don’t let it show
No, don’t whisper a word,
No, don’t shed a tear,
Just hide it all away.

 

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S.S. Lost and Forgotten

I am not pretty
For I have traveled many journeys
I am not wealthy
For I have not many possessions

My lines are not sleek
But they are mine
My decks are not shiny
But they are mine

I am not the fastest
But I hold the course
I am not the strongest
But I am a survivor

No tales are told
I am not remembered
No dreams are dreamed
I am not desired

I sit in the bay
With my lines sagging
I am fading away
Just a detail in the background

Maybe one day
Someone will see me
Maybe one day
Someone will love me

Until then I will rest in the mooring
Until then I will sway with the tide
Until then I will feel the Moon’s pull
Until then I will remain waiting

 

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Nothing More

Yesterday seems gone,
Every day passes,
Sun rises and sets,
It rains..it pours,
And on it goes.
Make up reasons,
Say your whys,
Cry your tears,
And hide your eyes,
Reason is gone.
Ever more needs,
Doing it again,
Bring all you have,
Uphill all the way,
Time will not hide
I know too well.
Why not you ask,
Isn’t that always it,
Longing for more,
Losing it all,
Never reaching the end.
One more day, you pray,
Today be the day,
Tell me the reason,
Edge closer to the end,
Let the rain in.
Let the rain fall,
You will swim,
Or you will sink,
Under you go, going, gone.

 

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She

She was dressed plainly,
Simple cotton peasant frock,
She didn’t wish for more,
Satin and lace were not hers.

Smudges of her solitary work
Showed upon brow and cheek,
They seemed almost proper
Even fitting with her smile.

She walked the miles to town,
She sold her wares for tuppence,
They were simple but good,
Complain, her customers never did.

They shared hellos
And even some how are yous,
She remembered their dates,
Their names and their likes.

But her name…hmm,
And her dates….shrugs,
Or her likes….no,
No one could tell.

One day she did not come,
One week she was not there,
One month that was all,
There was no memory at all.

 

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TOUCH.

Shuttering dreams,
Nightmare – It seems.
Hanging. Waiting.
Social approval.
Perhaps,it is removal.

Standing alone,
Watch people go by.
Unnoticed beauty.
Action is neutral.
Reaction is brutal.

Words you offered
Are promises slaughtered.
It gets better.
Life was given,
Sins forgiven.

In public. Awkward.
Reading a book.
Lunatic. Yes!
Oh my gosh! Look!
Moving forward.

Wait there.
Broken glass.
Shattered screen.
Destroyed mass.

Wake up. Wake up.
Is it too late.
Once real.
You were great.

Wake up. Wake up.
Let’s be friends.
Forget the screens.
No!? That’s where it ends.

I Miss You

I miss you
When you are gone,
The skies are gray,
Long are the days,
When I am alone.

I miss you
When you are gone,
The silence is loud,
My tears fill the clouds,
When I am alone.

I miss you
When you are gone,
Forever lasts the night,
Memories fill my sight,
When I am alone.

I miss you
When you are gone,
When I am all alone,
I miss you.

 

Photo Credit: Daniel De Jan

NightTime

I open my eyes,
I look around
but you are not there,
I whisper your name,
I get no reply.

I look at the clock,
Another hour passed,
I sigh and close my eyes,
I pull the covers higher,
I wish in the dark.

Lightening flashes,
Thunder rolls,
Rain pours,
And so my tears,
I am powerless,
I am small and weak

I fade into the night,
The wind carries my dream,
There is only emptiness left,
I curl into a ball,
I whisper your name,
I get no reply.

 

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Winter

As winter, so is his Fate
Storm comes again,
Clouds block the Sun
Wind blows, the world turns white

How long will it last
The question hangs
Just like the breath
In the air thick and heavy, waiting

He stands at the door
You should go
Before its too late
Get wood, we will need fire

Her look is gentle
Even kind, he stares
He stills, what if she stays
No, not that, she must go

Like reading his mind
She tilts her face
To see him direct
I’m here to stay, I can’t leave

But the darkness comes
The winds will howl
The snow will fall
For how long will it last, this time

The stillness comes
Like an avalanche
It is heavy and unbending
But she doesn’t move, he stares

She rises, he watches
I can do this too
She piles the wood
Lights the tinder and gently blows

He turns away
This isn’t right
Not the plan at all
How can it be not what I want

She puts on water
What is she doing
What is she thinking
I said go, she can’t say

I don’t mind
I like storms
And when Winter leaves
When Spring comes, then tell me bye

If you still must
If you still want
If you still need
But I will not leave while dark comes