What Do You Think About That?

Do you know that I am still head over heels in love with you?
What do you think about that?
Do you know that I am still awed by you?
What do you think about that?
Do you know that you are still my favorite person?
What do you think about that?
Do you know that I still love spending time with you?
What do you think about that?
Do you know that I still get a smile every time I think of you?
What do you think about that?
Do you know that I still catch my breath at the sound of your voice?
What do you think about that?
Do you know that I still get butterflies when I see you?
What do you think about that?
Do you know that I still get excited nervous when I get real time with you?
What do you think about that?
Do you know that I still only want you?
What do you think about that?
Do you know that you are still my Mr. Perfect?
What do you think about that?
Do you know that you are still the only place I want to be?
What do you think about that?
Do you know that you are still my dream come true?
What do you think about that?
I love you truly madly deeply and unconditionally
Thank you for loving me
Photo Credit: Daniel De Jan

Realization

We find a dream,
We believe that dream,
We idolize that dream,
We trust that dream,
But it is just a dream.
What’s a dream anyway,
Messages from the universe,
Messages from our soul,
Messages from our heart,
Messages from our brain,
But what do they really mean.
What about trust,
Words we want to hear,
Actions we want to see,
Persons we want to believe,
Things we want to have,
But are they really true.
What do we believe,
Love for ourself,
Love for someone else,
Love for a place,
Love for a thing,
How can we know.
I want to have the dream,
I want to dream the dream,
I want to trust the dream,
I want to believe the dream,
I want to love the dream,
But I don’t know how.

Sleeptime

I hear the silence it is so very loud,
It vibrates ’round me like a bomb.
I hear the silence it is so very quiet,
It seeps in every corner of my being.

I hear the silence yelling from within,
I hear the silence deafening all around,
I hear the silence crushing everything,
I hear the silence screaming, screaming
I hear the silence.

I see the darkness it does not end,
It goes on and on like an empty void,
I see the darkness surrounding the flicker,
It glares hungrily at the center of me.

I see the darkness the black hole growing,
I see the darkness the abyss within,
I see the darkness seeping into corners,
I see the darkness staring back at me,
I see the darkness.

 

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Letter Never Sent

Dear Love,

I know that I have never been easy. I know that most of the time I have been more than difficult. Each day with you I seem to find another broken piece of me. I knew before you that I was not whole and that I was cracked; but, I never knew just how completely broken I was. I have come to the conclusion that there is no part of me that is not broken. It is simply a matter of just how broken the parts of me are. I have tried to fit my pieces back together, yet, there are so many pieces that I am not capable. I have tried to put up a wall to hide the shattered remains that are my heart and soul, and it falls and crumbles to the ground.

In front of me you stand so solid and strong and complete. You are beautiful. You are perfection. You are everything that I wish I was. You are beautiful and I am plain. You are colorful and I am monochrome. You are strong and I am pieces. You are success and I am ruins. You are the empire and I am the lost. You are the Sun and I am the shadow. You are the Moon and I am the darkness. You are the stars and I am the dust.

So I sit in my corner and try to pick up my pieces. Then the gales blow and they are scattered again. I sit in my corner and try to fit the pieces together. Then the hail comes and knocks them down again. I sit in my corner and try to color my pieces. Then the darkness comes and hides it all. Every time I try, it is not enough.

You are there forever in my view. I am forever in love with you. So I stay in my corner and I keep trying, even when I am lost, even when I am tired, even when I am defeated, even when I am alone. I hope and pray that you see me trying and that it matters to you. I hope and pray that you will be patient with me. I hope that you will not give up on me.

I hope…..

 

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The Mountain

You climb the mountain
Only to stumble and fall
Skinned knees and
Scrapped hands

You shed your tears
Catch your breath
Stand up and
Dust off

You try again
Only to fall again
Bruises and blood
More scars

You hang your head
Hide your tears
Silent screams and
Waves of doubt

You look around
No one seen
Eyes to the sky
Silence

You start again
Just another round
One more time
One more

 

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My Addiction

I miss you so.
I miss the sound of your voice.
I miss the smile spreading across your face.
I miss the touch of your hand.
I miss the way you make me feel.
I miss that look and wink.
I miss coffee in bed.
I miss blankets on the terrace.
I miss stolen covers.
I miss kisses in the rain.
I miss sharing gyros.
I miss laughing over drinks.
I miss afternoon delights.
I miss slow dancing at home.
I miss walking in the snow.
I miss ‘tickets’ on the train.
I miss your shoulder.
I miss your chest.
I miss your arms.
I miss you!
All of you!

 

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Dreams to Reality

The first day was magic
You were like a dream
A dream that I dared not dream

The first hello was spell binding
Your voice was a song
A song that sung to my soul

The first kiss was all consuming
You took me in like a child
A child lost and finally found

The first embrace was pure heaven
Your arms were strong and protective
A heaven to protect me always

The first night was unimaginable
You were perfection in the flesh
A perfection that shone on me

The first caress was captivating
You held my breath, my heart beat
A moment in time unending

Every first with you is phenomenal
You are truly pulchritudinous
A dream made real for me

 

Photo Credit: Daniel De Jan

You Tell Me

You tell me I do not have to always change everything,
I wonder if you know all the things I accept,
You tell me I should find my own way,
I wonder if you know how long I walked alone,
You tell me I should do for myself,
I wonder what I am not doing right.

You tell me I am pretty,
I wonder when you saw me last,
You tell me I am smart,
I wonder if you see what I see,
You tell me my voice is heaven,
I wonder what I could say to you.

I tell you how amazing you are,
You smile and tell me, yes,
I tell you how special you are,
You smile and tell me, yes,
I tell you how talented you are,
You smile and tell me, yes.

I tell you how much I love you,
I wonder if you know what I mean,
I tell you how much I respect you,
I wonder if you know just how much,
I tell you how much I admire you,
I wonder if you see what I see in you.

You tell me Good Morning
I light up like the Sun,
You tell me I love you
My dreams come true,
You are my everything
One day I will deserve my everything

You Are

You Are My Sun,
For When You Are Near My World Is Bright.
You Are My Moon,
For When You Hold Close I Feel Your Magic.
You Are My Air,
For Your Kisses Give Me The Greatest High.
You Are My Water,
For Your Voice Carries Me Away From Troubled Shores.
You Are My Fortress,
For With You I Am Almost Invincible.
You Are My Soul,
For Your Love Makes Me Whole.

You Are My Everything!
Yesterday.
Today.
Tomorrow.
Forever.

Photo Credit: Daniel De Jan

Adrift

Set adrift in the dark,
Alone with no light,
Clouds hide the moon,
The stars do not shine.

What do I have?
There is nothing here.
Where do I go?
There is no where,

I read your words,
Written so long ago,
The only warmth I know,
I wrap my heart in them.

They are my only hope,
I was in the abyss,
And it was loving you –
That guided me out.

When I found solid ground,
I thought I was safe again,
But now I am lost at sea,
And the darkness doesn’t leave.

You are my only dream,
I whisper your name,
Over and over again,
Until, I almost feel you.

If I am strong enough,
If I try hard enough,
If I am right enough,
Then maybe, just maybe…

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What NoOne Noticed

Millions of little shards,
Scattered among the sand,
Drifting with dirt,
Blown away on the wind,
Washed away with the tides.

All the little pieces –
That use to fit together,
All the little pieces –
No longer matching,
All the little pieces –
All that is left.

Gone is the heart,
Gone is the mind,
Gone is the soul,
Gone, gone, gone.

Pink shredded ribbons hang,
Blood rivers flowing
From the emptiness,
The gaping hole.

Paleness spreading,
Shadows forming,
Light leaving,
Night consuming.

 

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