One, Two, Three

1_one_two_threeFirst there was One,
It was
Amazing,
New,
Magical.
Next came Two,
It was
Growing,
Doing,
Challenging.
That led to Three,
It was
Different,
Wow,
New Again.
Followed by Four,
It was
Bending,
Giving,
Stretching.
We stayed for Five,
It was
Listening,
Solid,
Strengthening.
Sailed with Six,
It was
Distance,
Life,
Familiarity.
Going for Seven,
I want
Growing,
You,
Adventuring.

You’ll Never Know

You’ll never know just what you mean to me,

I cannot put into words the way you make me feel,
Not even Shakespeare could!

I cannot paint on canvas the emotions you create,
Not even Van Gogh could!

I cannot write a formula to explain my reaction to your touch,
Not even Archimedes could!

I cannot compose a symphony to extol  being loved by you,
Not even Chopin could!

You’ll never know just how you have changed my world,

I cannot put into words the difference you have made,
Not even Byron could!

I cannot paint on canvas the dream that is reality with you,
Not even Monet could!

I cannot invent a theorem to prove your magical impact,
Not even Riemann could!

I cannot compose a symphony with more emotion than your presence,
Not even Tchaikovsky could!

No, you’ll never know!
But, know that you do.
You mean everything to me!

 

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Is this love?

Since the begining of time people seem to have the need to be in control, not only in control of their own life, but in control of those around them. There’s a big difference between being a part of someone’s life and tearing apart someone’s life.

My entire life I have been told that I was different, but when people used that term to define me, it was more often than not in a negative way. Why? Well, simply because I never followed the “rules of crowd”.
What are the rules of crowd you may ask? Well, the rules of crowd are the rules of living life what majority considers normal despite the fact of the said thing perhaps not being normal.

An example, 50 years ago if you dressed what people dress like today, you would be called any name in the book. If you dress today what people dressed like 50 years ago you are considered weirdo.

So what is normal? That brings me to next question – What is love?

Is love having to text your partner 100 times a day, check in just as many times? Is love having to have passwords to emails, facebook and other social platforms within first 3 months of relationship to determine whether or not someone is cheating. In my opinion that alone is asking for trouble.

Love is build on trust, respect and understanding. My girlfriend and I are as of moment ocean apart. We do trust each other. We do communicate, but we don’t obsess if a day goes by and we didn’t get to talk or text.

I have another question, does it mean that you don’t love someone when you don’t reply with I love you or I miss you when someone expresses and confesses to you.
It seems that lots of relationships, relationship of any sorts, business, friendship, intitmate relationship, family relationships have turned into passive-agressive controlling behaviour where it’s always about YOU! and no one else.

When someone dies, first thing you think about is how are you going to live without them. Did you notice? It’s about you “Oh, poor me!”. You didn’t for a second think about the life of the other person how they felt just moments before passing away.

How many times have you heard “My partner makes me feel good about myself, he/she is encouraging, loving, caring”. Rarely anyone ever considers how their partner feels and how it affects their emotional and mental well being and then you end up surprised when someone calls quits.

The bottom line is – It’s always about you and how you feel and your needs. Learn how to leave the egoistic emotions aside and for once think about someone else, maybe then, just maybe, you will really understand what love really is.


My Man

The Day I Met You,
I Found My Home,
The Place I Was Meant To Be.

You Complete Me,
You Make Me Whole,
You Make Me Better,
With You I Am Becoming Who I Was Meant To Be.

I Did Not Find You First,
I Did Not Find You Early,
By The Time I Did
I Was Lost And Scared And Had Given Up
Finding You Was The Journey That Was Meant For Me.

 

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What Have We Lost

Article said ways you cheat your relationships….
It was very real indeed.
We claim we are looking for true love,
A real relationship,
Fairy Tale ending….

Are we willing to earn it?
Profile says long walks holding hands,
Yet, your phone is what you hold tightest.
A plain “I love you” sits unread in your messenger,
Likes on your last post matters more.

We chase the DREAM and pass on happiness,
We say we want love, loyalty, and friendship
But we chase Facebook Fame
Twitter Titian status
And YouTube stardom.

Filtered photos hashtagging #honesty and #truth
Status quotes claiming love and loyalty
Secret profiles and messages….
Shhh! It’s nothing, not really…..
But, it takes all your time.

Do you know what real love is?
Do you know what real is?
Virtual has invaded our souls.
Virtual has warped our minds.
Convinced us the screen is real.
Illusion is the deal.

 

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Enough

I. Am. Chaos.
I push and I pull
Even when I pull I am pushing
I am nothing and I am too much
Never just enough.

If you like me
You like me a lot until you don’t
If you hate me
You hate me a lot until I am not
Apathy is not enough.

If you know me
You don’t
If you don’t know me
You do
Maybe you think that is enough.

Seasons change
Years leave
Memories made fade
Just dust in the wind
Can’t that be enough.

Want. Desire. Need.
Things just out of reach
Dreamy mist scattered with light
Just one more wish is all
That would be enough.

 

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A Lady’s Longing

My Esteemed Champion,

I am writing in some state of despair! I had been informed of your departure, but found myself uncertain of the whole of the circumstances. Thusly, I was unsure about future correspondence or communication.

You know that I am incapable of forsaking My Lord; however, I am equally incapable of imagining His kingdom without your presence. Your presence has been of great comfort to myself and provided me with support and council when in need. I cherish fondest memories of our introduction; by My Lordship’s grace, he knew that as I found my way and sorted my place that I would require more than just His love and patience to carry me forward, and how correct He was in knowing that I would come to know and love and depend on you almost as much as Him.

Not wanting to believe that your absence might be exhaustive, I have endeavoured to convince myself that you are merely on some grand expedition for My Lord, like Nelson or Captains Lewis and Clark, and thus, while I may not know or guess at the day or hour of your return, I believe in the certainty of it! For what other course of action can I possibly avail myself of, if not the surety of your eventual return and the joyous reunion that it will commence.

My Lord has been turning new leafs to be sure! I have been swooned by the renewal of his much desired affections. I have been emboldened by his presence and attention. I have set my sights on desires of my mind and heart and I have set my hands and focus to projects much neglected. I would delight that I could share my thoughts with thee, sire, or that I could receive some fondly shared council.

The fortnight previous this sennight was an incredible increase of his attentiveness reminiscent of our inception! That being stated, it should also be noted even more prominently that it was of greater breath and depth having our ensuing relations to build upon and increase. The peace and confidence instilled by His loving show endowed in me the desire to present him with certainty that I have indeed begun to find my place and trust not only my position but also His support of…

And that My Dearest Sire, is certainly where, had I but had your council would not have made such a choice that swiftly ceased that previous fortnight! This day’s stretching has been the most grievous thus far, but, I fear that I need only await the dawn break for the truth of that to reaffirm itself by leaping from the past into the present, until I fathom some way to correct my misstep. It is that fathoming that has been the elusive wisp fleeing my desirous grasp for these past days.

My instinct is to immediately issue apologies and request the topic dismissed; yet, while, that is my growing wish, what growth would it display? Am I not worthy of observing and stating such with conclusions as I feel and think, especially for the intent of increasing My Lord’s peace and joy?
Do I address the change in an attempt to ascertain the validity of my suspicions and risk creating non-existent challenges? Should I not endeavor to express my concerns and thoughts before creating an elephant that does not exist? Or do I just do nothing openly and wait until he desires my company again….

My Champion, if it has not been made apparent, your absence is sorely felt and your presence is greatly desired! I do hope that your expedition runs it course expediently and that you are returned to us with great haste!

With Baited Anticipation,
Fondly Yours

Lady X

 

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I wonder

Are you still glad I let you in?
Do you still wonder what I think?
Do you still care what I feel?
Is it still important what’s important to me?

Should I take a scenic route?
Should I take the long way?
Should I become silent?
Should I only whisper to myself?

Are you still glad I trust you?
Do you still want my confiding?
Do you still want to know my dreams?
Is it still important where I want to be?

Would you seek me out?
Would you look for me?
Would you call my name?
Would you notice the change?

Are you still glad I want you?
Do you still hear my voice?
Do you still feel my glance?
Is it still important that you are important?

Could we meet someday?
Could we meet someplace?
Could we spend some time?
Could we share some space?

 

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King Of My Heart

Suns have risen.
Promises were given.
More than a thousand
Summer. Autumn.
Winter. Spring.
Remember how it all began?

You were magic complete.
I was swept clean off my feet.
You captured my heart
Mind. Body.
Spirit. Soul.
I was yours from the start.

My King, My King
You make my heart sing.
With you my life is complete.
My King, My King
Your love gives me wings.
Woo me with kisses so sweet.

Yours, I wish to be.
My love, I hope you see.
‘Tis no mountain, too steep a climb.
With you is my choice.
Listen to my voice.
My promise, I am yours for all time.

 

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Da li — Znam

Da li me vidiš?
Ne znam.
Ali
Vidim te!

Da li me slušaš?
Ne znam.
Ali
Slušam te!

Da li me znaš?
Ne znam.
Ali
Mislim tako.

Da li te znam?
Ne znam.
Ali
Mislim ponekad.

Da li me želiš?
Mislim tako.
Ali
Želim te!

Da li me trebaš?
Mislim tako.
Ali
Trebam te!

Znam da me voliš.
I
Volim te.

Znam da si moje srce.

Znam da si moj svet.

Znam da si moj početak.

Znam da si moj kraj.

Uvek
I
Zauvek!

 

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Eternally Indebted

My Dearest Mr. Hastings,

I hope that as winter settles in that your heart remains warmed and that your eyes oft alight on the flames of a cheery fire. I hope that all the peace and wonder of the season are not lost on your drive and ambition. I hope that you find the time for friends and family and that great conversation and loving laughter are the accompaniment of those times. I hope that you make the time to seek out those that are important to you and I hope that you have the time when sought out by those that find you important.
I wish for you many blessings and joys, now and always. I wish for you dreams coming true and giving rise to new dreams. I wish for you all the success that you desire and have chased; and I hope that it brings you all that you hoped it would. I wish for you memories made with your family and loved ones to treasure always.
I thank you for your patience. I thank you for your thoughtfulness. I thank you for your council. I thank you for listening. I thank you for your tolerance. Most of all I thank you for your time.
With more debt than can be repaid
M
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Happy Birthday To My One And Only

My Dearest Darling,

I wanted to take a few minutes to share some things with you. It has been 4 years since you came into my life and gave me a world that was full of light and joy and hope and peace. It has been that long since I have wondered what it would be like to be in a loving real relationship, cause that is now an every day life for me. Each day with you is like a dream come to life. With you I see the world from a different point of view. You have given me so much and I am so very grateful; but, what you have given me the most of, is myself.

You have provided me with a home, with a safe harbor, a place that I can be me, a place that I can come to when I need and want. You have given me a place where I feel like I belong, where I feel special and needed and loved and wanted. You looked harder and deeper in me than anyone has ever looked before; and, you found that little gem that with some polish could shine and glow in a little part of the world.

You have mended the broken parts that you found and turned the scars into Kintsukuroi. You have supported me when I have wanted to explore and picked me up when life knocked me down. You have encouraged me and gently guided me all with love. You give me hope and courage when I cannot find them in myself. You lift me up and give me wings to soar. You envelope me and give me a shoulder to cry on.

In you I have all that I need. In you I find all that I want. You are my Alpha and my Omega. You are my Sun and my Moon. You are my breath and my heartbeat. You are my infinity and my finite. You are my dawn and my dusk. You are my desire and my necessitate. You are my time, my space, my universe.

I will always love you. You will always be the man that I want. You will always be the man that I need. You will always be where I want to be.

Yours Always and Forever,